Two weeks?!!!!!!

Well, we have survived two weeks of an almost 3 year old(3months baby!), an 1 1/2 year old and a newborn. First off, thank you for all of your love and support and comments! I can honestly tell you it has had it's crazy moments, where all are crying,but I have come to terms that all I can do is do my best, give my best and deal with one at a time. It has been wonderful! THe hardest thing I've had to deal with is how my relationship has changed with my girls! I'm very close to my girls........and I could feel that it had changed when we brought this little guy home! I have spent moments bawling about this change........but have come to terms that it does change.........I have to give a lot to a newborn,but doesn't mean I cannot have an amazing relationship with my girls........since then, I've done the best I can not to freak out when they have break downs, or get short with them 'cuz I"m sleep deprived and expect them to be perfect, and take moments to show them I love them and find moments to plaly with them. I feel that these three are going to be close! THe girls love their new bro.! He knows their voices and will quiet down when they are around. Savanna loves to hold him and is the first to his side when he starts to cry! The other night she was holding him, and kept looking down at him smiling, saying, "I know Joshua, I know"....then said, "I lub you so much"....she then looked up at me and said, "sanna feels sooooo special". Gracie loves him too......sometimes a little too much so I have to intervene so he doesn't get hurt, but she is so precious to him, she is as gentle as she can be with him. She'll cry when we move him or she cannot get to him. I have mixed emotions of him being two weeks old! It's going too fast! I already can see some more meat on those tiny thighs! It's sad that it is going so fast, but I'm also excited for sleeping longer than two hour chunks at a time, and all the fun things that come with him growing up.......I cannot wait for the first real smile and for him to giggle and say momma. I'm just so grateful for these blessings! So, I can't figure out who he looks more like. Some have said he has his own look..........what do you think?
this is Joshua

this is Savanna

this is Gracie

I'm in love!

Well, it happened! Our Joshua Dennis McDuffie arrived on Monday, Feb. 2nd, 2009! I started having contractions, intense, Sunday night, but they were like 25 min. apart, so I didn't think anything of it(meaning, not trying to get my hopes up)......so we went to bed and i woke up around 2-2:30 with contractions that went from 20 to 15 to 5 to under 2 min. apart and they were intense! I've never had them this intense before like this! Just to be sure, we stayed at home for an hour then headed to the hospital at 4-4:30 am. They admitted me right away 'cuz I was almost a five........then 45 min. later a 7........with how fast I was going I figured I'd just keep going natural........hahahahaha! My doctor broke my water at an 8 and the contractions were so intense, but I figured I was too late to get that glorious epidural! But, I was at an 8 for two hours...his head was turned a certain way so he wasn't hitting the cervix to help dilate.......so they decided to put me on the pit.! Yeah, let's just say, I couldn't handle the pain anymore, so got that epidural, just in time to take the edge off the pain! I now look up to those that do it o-natural! He cam at 9:17 am. He was 6 lbs. 15 oz. and 20 in. long! He is so beautiful! He has a little bit of hair! I knew I'd love him, but never knew it would feel like this! It was such a neat feeling when I saw him for the first time. He had no problem screaming, which both of our girls had to be taken from me to be suctioned out a couple of times! He is so precious and knows his sisters voices. They love him, and savanna is already mommy's big helper. Gracie loves him, but is kinda funny. She acts a little more defiant and seems a little mad at me......since she is a momma's girl to the 'T'........but we'll get through it! I was nervous to do this alone without my mom! \Yoou know it has been hard, and no one, no one can take the place of a mommy........it has been such a neat growing experience for me and my family! The ward has reached out and taken me under their wings. I can't tellyou how many ladies have come and taken the gals, so I could rest.....or those that have made meals so we aren't always eaating cereal 'cuz of how sick and especially how much pain I've been in this last like 5 weeks! They have loved us and have showed us that true happiness is found through serving others, even when you have your own problems! It has brought me closer to my sisters and brothers as we have had to lean on each other. I am truly blessed! THanks to all who have reached out to us and others!